Screams Behind My Eyes

Screams Behind My Eyes is about the prison of the mind – the place where the loudest screams are never heard. On the surface, everything looks calm, even normal. A smile covers the face, routines carry on, but inside there is chaos: walls closing in, voices that never stop, and a silent battle no one else can see.

The lyrics tell this story: sealed rooms, pressing walls, the desperate cry for release that echoes only inward. It is not just about pain, but about the unbearable contrast between what the world sees – a functioning person – and what is hidden behind the eyes.

For me, this song comes from a very real place. As a child, I lost my parents and grew up in a home marked by chaos and abuse. I learned to create an outer personality – a mask that could survive, smile, and appear strong – while inside I was screaming for help. My mind protected me, but in doing so it also locked me in a nightmare that lasted for decades. PTSD kept me prisoner in silence, until I finally found help 25 years later.

The imagery in the song is raw: darkness closing in, screams with no voice, the tension between the smile outside and the torment inside. It is not just metaphor, but memory – a reflection of what it means to carry pain unseen.

The visual world mirrors this. The image for Screams Behind My Eyes shows a man sitting in a corner, head tilted back, forcing a smile, while around him monstrous faces press through the walls – grotesque, silent, and relentless. They are not real, yet they surround him, embodying the chaos within.

This is the essence of the track: the distance between appearance and reality, the life lived behind closed walls, and the silent screams that never find a voice. A smile on the outside – chaos within.